Thought Dump Part 36

 
Dec 2nd 2021

If you want to be a balanced individual, then you have to find the places of imbalance and then re-balance them. If you're always thinking, then you need to learn to find a balance between thinking and non-thinking. If you're always doing, then you need to find a balance between doing and being. If you're always talking or always listening, then you need to find a balance between the two.

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Dec 2nd

We are tied not only to the stories we believe into, but also the stories we make. There is what is, that is before we had a thought about it. Then there is our interpretation of the 'what is', the thought about it.

Some thoughts are collectively shared, others are individually shared. Some are born from our collective decision, others are members of our one party worldview.

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If humanity in the early centuries were technologically advanced as we are now in the present day, it would literally be a disaster. The rise of more intense ways to harness energy for lighting the world and also threatening nations with complete annihilation is not something to be taken lightly, and if blood thirsty, barbaric nations were already instigating hellish battles over land, just imagine how much more insane it would get with bombs, rockets and even nukes centuries before us...

More energy requires more responsibility. That's why in the early centuries, so many of these esoteric schools were kept secret from the public and they only allowed initiation after getting to know the individual. They knew that if they gave some of this powerful information away, which allowed them to access higher energy, then the outcome could potentially be dangerous if it fell into the hands of the wrong people.

For example, the major production of nuclear energy is well known throughout the world. It requires an extreme amount of responsibility and discretion to use that energy in a creative and beneficial way rather than a destructive and harmful way. If nuclear power fell into the hands of an insane human with no care in the world that it will destroy a whole nation of people, it will prove to be disastrous.

Even if it is used in war, it can prove to be disastrous to both sides. Let's say one side uses it on the other, and then the other sees that it is only fair to use it back on the other. Then we not only destroyed one nation, but a whole other nation over what? Because of our desire for their land? Their resources? Because of our anger, madness or our collective rage?

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We are ALL going to say stupid things, smart things, weird things and horrendously boring things. No one is exempt to being dropped into experiences where they are the idiot and then in other experiences where they are the adept. The truly humble human will admit to the function and role of both idiot and adept in short sequences of time to much larger sequences of time. Regardless of the abstraction of experience, we play both fools and the wise disguised as the Eternal One. We play both parts and all that is in between as the one that transcends all sequences of time and reality. We play all parts that seem to reflect varying times but are all still somehow all simultaneously played out at the same time, in the present moment.

To our brain, simultaneous time is contradictory. For the brain only desires to accept rationale within the limited framework of linear time. Beyond the brain in the realm of awareness, we are aware that the limits we place on rationale are the limits we collectively agreed on within society. For example, in society we tend to collectively push for a conventional beauty standard. We collectively push forward women and men we find attractive for whatever reason we all decide on, but if for any moment we chose to switch the standards, then it would be collectively accepted as such.

Another example is that we tend to label certain experiences as irrational when they don't benefit society in an orderly way. For example to society, a schizophrenic person is seen as mentally ill and needs to be medicated so that he sees what everyone else sees. But the ironic part is at some level of intensity, we all view the world in ways that not everyone sees. Somehow the schizo is the one who sees or hears that which isn't there, but the women who blames her husband for stealing her clothes and selling them online when she has zero evidence in the real world, is somehow not a schizo.

Is this not something confined to her perception that is not shared also by the world? Especially when the world collectively agrees he did not steal her clothes, but she alone still does believe that? Then this begs the question, at what level of intensity does one seem to be plagued with a mental disorder to the point where they need to be diagnosed?

If anxiety is considered a mental health issue, then aren't we all mentally ill to some degree? Are there not days, weeks, or months where we fall into depressive or anxious episodes but eventually find the light at the end of the tunnel? I'm not saying medication isn't necessary, but rather that aren't we all victims at times to intense highs and lows?

Some people might turn to anti-anxiety meds to help during these times while others might turn to street drugs like heroin, but is this not a common issue for humanity as a whole of trying to find ways to deal with our mental strain from life, whether chronic or temporary? Have we not all experienced times where we have tried to self-medicate using sex, food, drugs, to deal with our current mental state? Again, I am for safe prescription drugs if one needs it, but I'm wondering if mental disorders are at the core, an experience we all will have at one point in our lives.

Another question is, what makes someone an unacceptable member of society? Some would argue that bad morals in certain times can serve as good if they are life saving. For example, if there is a murderer who walks into your home and he demands that you tell him where a certain man is so they he can kill him, but then you end up lying to buy time for the police to come and to protect this individual. Now the once believed sin of lying is now the life saving action in a dire circumstance. Is the person who lied truly someone who sinned or is what he did honorable? The action itself seems to hold certain morale when we decide it does and once again, that does not only vary society from society, but from religion to religion, and even person to person.

So if we make up society, then we choose what is irrational and what is rational. We choose what is moral and what is immoral. If most people and especially leaders in that given society are Christians, then that society is most likely going to accept Christian beliefs as rational. However if that society is predominantly composed of atheists who neither accept nor reject the belief in God, then the minority of Christians will be considered irrational. I would even take one step further to argue that society is also many times a reflection of our beliefs reflected back to us. Not all the times, but when we experience backlash from society, oftentimes it's because deep down that backlash still may exist in us.

Or if we experience hate or fear for a small harmless spider, then that hate or fear we project on that spider had to come from somewhere within us. If we hate a spider and then blame it on Joe who doesn't hate or love spiders, that would make no sense and serve as a horrible argument for your hate. But if you acknowledge that you take responsibility for the emotions you feel in relation to what triggers them, then you can start working on finding out what caused that hate to proliferate and how you can dissolve it in a healthy manner rather than projecting that hate onto other people and innocent spiders that are merely trying to survive.

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I obviously don't agree with everything Osho says, but that makes sense because I'm not Osho, so his truth for his life will not always resonate with my own life. Similarly, I encourage you to consider everyone's experience of life as a grain of salt in comparison to your own experience of life. Your symbols and other words to describe your experience oftentimes touch your heart very deeply where other people's symbolic choice of words are nice, but do not vitalize your core.

If your two experiences converge where their symbols resonate with your experience, then that's awesome. Your two truths have melded through similar experience. So the quote below is a representation of that same idea. His truth and experience of meditation as described below reflected beautifully what I felt with my own, and therefore it makes me happy that he has put into words what I had yet to find within to vocalize.

“A man of meditation comes to a point where there is no temptation left. Try to understand it. Temptation never comes from without; it is the repressed desire, repressed energy, repressed anger, repressed sex, repressed greed, that creates temptation. Temptation comes from within you, it has nothing to do with the without. It is not that a devil comes and tempts you, it is your own repressed mind that becomes devilish and wants to take revenge. To control that mind one has to remain so cold and frozen that no life energy is allowed to move into your limbs, into your body. If energy is allowed to move, those repressions will surface.” - Osho

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When I see a rainbow, I don't think about a god murdering the whole world for them not living up to his expectations of righteousness, I see myself.

I see each color as a dimension to experience, but I also see each color as my inherent beingness. At the root of all experiences, all stories, all moments in time, moments outside of time, lies the hidden self manifested as the expressed self.

The rainbow, though limited by the gaze of our perception, also transcends our limited perception. When one finds out the rainbow is nonetheless light playing with form, then one remembers a little more of how this body is us playing with experience.

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If you only knew a fraction of the depths of the limitlessness of your own being, then you would stop relying on people to explain with their religions your experiences. You'd stop relying on religions to define your morality. You'd stop relying on society to tell you what is normal and not normal behavior.

You'd clap joyously when the airplane landed. You'd let the milk come out of your nose when the woman to your right on the train made you glow with laughter. You would tell you a random joke to ease the mind before the day of finals. You'd find a million and one ways to be nice and love those who genuinely needed it.

You'd remain boundless through boundless love when everyone around you tried their hardest to convince you to wall up your being with boundaries to protect yourself from the weaker force of fear. You'll see yourself as truly immortal rather than vulnerable to the material works.

You'll sing when people are moping and dance when people are seething with hatred. You'll find ways to bless people's social media feed instead of spread paranoia through unwarranted beliefs about everything from pharma to the family down the street.

You'll spread the infinity of your being by simply living your truth and those who are tired of their limits, tired of the limits from society, tired of their limits from religion will get to take a break as they rest with you. As you share some wholesome moments besides them, they will wish to no longer be fragmented.

You will serve as a reminder, that they were never just the crest of a temporary wave, but rather the wholeness of the waters it sprang from. You will serve as a reminder to a forgotten memory, that somehow love does prevail, even in broken beliefs held within our subjective reality.

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I find it hilariously ironic when religious people negatively judge and condemn those who are addicted to world related things such as drugs and rock and roll when they themselves are just as addicted to their religion and that which lies therein. They stare with contempt at their neighbor for having tattoos all over their body but then they themselves are addicted to the rush they get of being seen as a holy man of God by the church.

They condemn people for making money as a well-established musician while they themselves are addicted to their musician status as a church. They condemn the people who speak to hundreds of thousands on how to better oneself but they themselves are addicted to climbing to the top of the religious ladder of being seen by as many as possible.

They're addicted to the numbers of how many attend their church. They're addicted to preaching the gospel and converting people to their religion. They're addicted to the afterlife belief of heaven and hell where instead of questioning how a loving God could truly throw people in hell eternally for finite mistakes, they start to find a creepy and unsolicited pleasurable satisfaction that eternal hell exists.

They don't ever say it outright, but if they are ever caught secretly with that mentality, they do what they've always done for centuries and blame it on God. They blame their mentality on God, their wars on God, their mass genocide on God, treating women like property on God, dehumanizing people as unpaid property on God, and every other unruly action of religion on God.

Them bypassing condemnation is only a reflection of their own condemnation they have for themselves. I would even argue that their attachments and addictions of their religion are more intense than those of the world. The greed is even more because they bank on their beliefs like they bank on their own life.

These religious people sign in the strangest laws rooted in discrimination and condemnation, of inequality and of oppression, but then try to blame it on God. Trump issues a ban on transgender people being able to serve in the military. For what reason exactly? Pence sets up gay conversion camps for what reason?

These actions are religiously influenced by people addicted to their religion and their interpretation of what is morally sound. They twist their addiction into morality which makes them passionate addicts. Once morals become the cover up for their addiction, it's hard to convince someone else that they are wrong. They not only believe they are right, they fall into this mindset that everyone else who doesn't believe like them is wrong. This is the case with dualistically inclined religions but it still also exists in many non-dualistic inclined religions.

Their addiction to their religion manifests as an unhealthy imbalance in life. They spend 5 times a week going to church, reading the Bible, talking about the Bible, talking about the same story for thirty, forty, fifty years trying desperately to find new ways to interpret it or new information about it so that they don't become bored of it. They spend all their free time on one belief system that they think is necessary for salvation. They essentially believe a finite thought can save their infinite souls. They believe a finite story with one line of expression constitutes the true reality of all potential expressions of life.

They don't understand even the basics of what a multiverse is because their convinced through their religion that all there is, is one way or the highway. You either join in their addiction or you become obsolete and if you don't join, you are the heathen. You are the estranged one for having other addictions than themselves. They are the holy men and women of God for spending 7 days a week in their church organization giving their time to growing their community as much as possible.

They say you're the heathen for trying to grow a community that isn't founded on a limited and narrow belief system of what will save you from a red horned entity they call the devil. You're the heathen for just having a community of people that isn't founded on one belief system tied to salvation. Do you see the irony???