Exploring Life

Let me make this very clear to those who think I’m transitioning because they believe it’s a man’s world and I’m jealous (real quick, lmao). I’m not transitioning out of envy for men or disdain for womanhood. I’m transitioning so that my body aligns with my brain because, in my brain, I have always felt that I am a man. To those who hold this misconception, consider this: Does anyone really believe I would want to go through all this extra trouble—taking a testosterone shot each week, enduring life-changing, permanent surgeries—just out of jealousy? Do they think that since childhood, when I began expressing that I am a boy, it was simply a massive phase that would eventually end? A 25-year-long phase is quite the stretch, don’t you think? Do they really imagine I prefer using men’s restrooms, which often have pee splattered everywhere and smell unpleasant, over women’s restrooms? Do they think I want to miss out on girl slumber parties? Do they assume I’m willing to jeopardize amazing...

Entry 699 - June 2nd 2021 I have failed if all that I write is turned into another limited BS and irrational religious doctrine. I have failed if people follow my journey of life, read my writings, listen to my videos and podcasts, and turn it into another morality trap where people are considered ‘woke’ if they listen to my stuff and ‘non-woke’ if people don’t. I have failed if people use my writings to steal, kill, and destroy because instead of dealing with their trauma from society, religion, family, and others in a healthy way, they project it onto others, thus causing more trauma for themselves and for others. I have failed if people years from now read my writings and see me as some deified being while they consider everyone else as just mortal humans destined to die in their sins. I have failed if people live only through my experiences and they are too afraid to explore other nations, cultures, traditions, religions, science, and mathematics to find out for themselves. I have ...

Topics: Sexual Repression / Dating a Trans Man / It's Okay To Say How You Feel Entry 690 - April 8th, 2021 How sexual repression works, especially if you grew up in a fundamental Christian denomination that pushed purity culture down your throat, is that your gender expression and any other sexuality that wasn’t approved by the church became repressed by yourself so that you would be seen as “moral.” So how I repressed my gender expression (heterosexual trans man) was that I convinced myself that maybe I’m just asexual, and I want to be a buff girl and that’s it. It didn't solve anything, but telling myself a lie was better than ending up dead. Entry 691 - April 10th Reasons You Should Date a Trans Man We have practically lived two lives of being perceived differently in one, so we’re very much likely to understand and sympathize with many of your struggles as a woman. We can sympathize with what it feels like to get a monthly period and know how to treat you right while you...

Entry 687 - July 25th, 2021 The sinful nature doctrine in the West or the ego doctrine in the East are both attempts at moralizing action, and both can be potentially harmful to those who submit to those belief systems. One reason why they can be harmful is that the person can endow the belief with a certain amount of power to hurt the entity physically in their temporary vessel on Earth. Not only that, but it can create a strong dichotomy within someone's thought process regarding how they see themselves, others, and their relationship with God/Source/Creator/All That Is/I Am. Every aspect of yourself is a part of consciousness. No aspect of yourself does not carry some part of All That Is (I am now saying this instead of God because when I say God, many from the Western religions visualize a sky daddy limited in varying respects). To say that some portion of yourself is “evil,” that some part of yourself is “limited,” that some part of yourself is “seeing things wrong,” is a sign...

Topics:  Let's Transcend Flimsy Belief Systems / Prophets in the OT / Destructive Mindsets  Entry 671 There are a lot of things people say that cannot be backed up by science. I want to continue the work of Einstein, Bohr, Higgs, and more physicists by exploring the known universe, finding out more about the universe, and sharing it with the world. I want to transcend the flimsy, limited, and outdated belief systems of this world that are not based in science or mathematics but are rather based on legends, myths, and oral history passed down through centuries. I want to create the connections, associations, and realizations between mind and matter using classical and quantum physics to help people unite rather than cause more division by belief systems such as Christianity and other religions. I want to carry on Albert Einstein’s work of self-discovery utilizing intuition, visualizations, science, and mathematics. I want to ride a ball of light to find the speed induced. ...

Topics: You Manifest Your Reality / I'm attracted to the Dangerously Free / Join the Pondering  Entry 655.5 The Christians who say, "See, Revelation, the last book of the Bible, is happening! The world is on fire!" make me want to say, "Well, if it is, it's because you guys manifested it by focusing your energy and attention on that probable reality! If we truly live in an omniverse of infinite potentiality, with a multitudinous amount of probable parallel universes, then by focusing on that reality, you quite literally attracted it through your attention. According to quantum physics, the observer and the observed are one." Entry 656 When I thought someone's life was going downhill, I used to say it was because they weren’t obeying God’s laws. I saw things dualistically and statically, as right versus wrong. Now, when I look back at those moments, I realize it wasn’t a matter of obeying or disobeying a static law etched into existence directly by God...