Exploring Life

Entry 931 - September 30th, 2021 (Wrote this while in the midst of traveling all over Europe from August to December) Traveling is learning to balance the predictability with the unpredictability. It’s learning to balance stability with instability. It’s learning to be okay when things don’t go as planned and, instead of reacting negatively to the unpredictable, learning to embrace it with love and appreciation for the growth it provides. Some days you might make your train. Other days, you may miss it by a couple of seconds. There might be weeks when you meet amazing friends who become like family and change your life for the better. At the same time, you could meet the most challenging people who have no desire to truly help you but use you relentlessly for their own gain. Whether that’s someone trying to lie to the police about you to get out of paying because they ran out of money, or a person on the street who steals all your valuables. At the end of the day, you cannot predict ev...

Entry 914 - September 30th, 2021 The belief that karma requires someone to be reincarnated because they made mistakes is, in my opinion, BS. With that limited definition, technically no one would make it out because everyone makes mistakes. Mistakes are an integral part of our journey in duality. There is no perfect journey, only journeys riddled with beneficial and harmful decisions. There is no single right way—there are multiple ways. Labeling parts of our choices as mistakes or not mistakes is based on our current relative perspective. Not everyone will agree on what constitutes a mistake or a sin. The idea that there is a morally objective way to determine reincarnation is also bogus. How ironic is it that Einstein proves general and special relativity is the reality of our universe, yet we claim morality—which has been proven relative throughout centuries—is actually absolute. Karma doesn't choose for you or force you to experience one thing over another; you choose how long ...

Topics: Scientists/Probabilities/Free Will vs No Free Will Published 12/31/21 Entry 911 - December 31st, 2021 There are a couple of issues with Sabine Hossenfelder's argument that we have no free will. First, she points out how we can explain everything in the universe using differential equations, and in these equations, you need a beginning—and that was the Big Bang Theory. She then goes on to say that since we are made of particles from the Big Bang, we can also be deterministically "charted out." However, here is the issue with that argument: it focuses on the particles rather than the energy behind the particles. It focuses on the space and time in which they exist rather than the energy that upholds their existence beyond the changes in form these particles undergo. The Big Bang happened 13.8 billion years ago, and it's quite obvious that the scientific community expects a gradual micro- and macroevolution of our universe and our species. According to the Big Ba...

Entry 894 - March 7th, 2021 Cancel culture should become correct-and-forgive culture. Entry 895 You either play the game, or the game plays you. Entry 896 - May 7th Even though I feel like I've thoroughly de-conditioned from most of religion, there's still a lot of junk in spirituality that I'm realizing I need to purge from my system. So we're all in this together, equally fighting to reclaim our truth from systems of invisible belief, where so many are designed to turn us into their own personal truth expressions rather than to help us find our own. Entry 897 - May 10th If Albert Einstein said that linear time is an illusion and that time is all simultaneously happening right now, then wouldn’t déjà vu—where you feel like you’ve experienced something but haven’t necessarily experienced it yet—be you tapping into the reality of that future experience in the present moment? Since all we have is right now, wouldn’t déjà vu be your ability to enter into other intervals of...

Entry 870 - Aug 25th, 2021 When I say that you are a multidimensional entity, what I mean is that you are experiencing life in multiple dimensions. The more dimensions you are aware of, the more enriched your experience will be. Similarly, people who normally have a constricted view of dimensions tend to believe in religions or particular sects within religions that only focus on limited dimensions. However, those who expand beyond limited ideas within religions—or those within religions that focus on expansive ideas—will have people who are more drawn towards them. Then, eventually, they will outgrow the belief system of one group or one person if they are expanding faster than the actual religion or person they are following. The point of a teacher should not be to bind anyone to their beliefs but to teach them the freedom to unbind from all other beliefs besides what one feels called to believe in or to move to a place beyond the formation of temporary belief systems. Maybe that...

Entry 851 - Sept 15th One of the most damaging beliefs from certain denominations of Christianity that, to this day, I am still de-conditioning from is trusting myself. It might not seem like a big deal, but it’s huge. This encompasses every aspect of oneself: trusting one’s intellect, trusting one’s memory, trusting one’s ideas, and trusting one’s journey. I realized that Christianity conditioned me to be dependent on multiple layers. In order to be dependent on God, I was conditioned that I needed to be dependent on Christianity.  In order to be dependent on Christianity, I needed to be dependent on the Christian church. In order to be dependent on the Christian church, I needed to be dependent on the Bible. In order to be properly dependent on the Bible, I needed to be dependent on the proper interpretations of the Bible from the church. The levels of dependency were deeply embedded into one another until you couldn’t imagine God without any other aspect of Christianity. Religio...

Topics: Classical Physics / The Universe is Expanding / The Benefit of Studying Math and Physics / Black Hole Conjecture Entry 841 Classical physics and how it is used can be represented by a coin that can either be heads or tails. Quantum physics, on the other hand, can be represented by the infinite possibilities of how many heads and how many tails you can have, which can go on forever. Not only that, but the coin could have a heads and tails on both sides, or maybe another coin with only one or the other, and then coins with other varying possibilities of choices within the spectrum of the choice at hand. So, the two are represented in the following experiment as one that is discrete and measurable and the other as potentially infinite and measureless. Entry 842 At this point, I’ve spent enough time studying religions to see the associations, dissimilarities, similarities, etc., to know the bullshit within them so that I no longer continually fall into the trap of believing a certa...

Entry 821 - July 25th 2021 Since space and time are relative, that means we live in a relative (subjective) world. Entry 822 No one told me how lonely it would be Making the change to transition fully. Entry 823 Strange rebuttals to my gender identity that people have said to me: “In one year, you’re going to de-transition.” I find it humorous that they think they know me more than I know myself. It isn’t a matter of choosing which gender identity I like better; it’s that my gender identity in this incarnation has always felt male, even though I was assigned female at birth. I’m not androgynous, where sometimes I feel one way or another. I’ve simply felt that I should have a male body for this particular incarnation. “This age is making it a fad to transition.” I literally only know two personal friends who are transitioning out of thousands of friends and family. Plus, that statement is not statistically accurate at all. Transgender people only make up about 0.6% of the population. Ju...