Thought Dump Part 29

 
July 25th 2021

Since space and time are relative that means we live in a relative (subjective) world.
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No one told me how lonely it would be
Making the change to transition fully
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Strange rebuttals to my gender identity that people have said to me:

“In one year you’re going to de-transition.”

I find it humorous that they think they know myself more than my own self. It isn’t a matter of choosing which gender identity I like better, it’s that my gender identity in this incarnation has always felt male, even though I was assigned female at birth.

I’m not androgynous where sometimes I feel one way or another, I’ve simply felt that I should have a male body for this particular incarnation.

“This age is making it a fad to transition.”

I literally only know two personal friends who are transitioning out of thousands of friends and family. Plus, that statement is not statistically accurate at all. Transgender people only make up to 0.6% of the population. Just because the internet makes the world seem smaller does not mean the stats randomly change to cater to your unrealistic biases.

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July 31st

He thinks it’s just a phase
That I’ll grow out of it like I grew out of childish maze
He says he predicts the end of my transitioning
For a man who doesn’t believe in psychics that's pretty alarming
In one life or another he’ll learn to let people be who they truly are
By finding out who he really is
But until then he’ll continue to project who he thinks I am
And I'll continue to live my life authentically as I am
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Each day I try to actively let go
To not put attention on the energy and flow
That for some reason exists strongly between us
As if we are from the same planet like Venus
But then I feel you call my energy in the night
And then realize I’m once again right by your side
Both in the dream state but it’s clear this is more than a meaningless thing of fate

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August 3rd 2021

The whole, "This will lower your frequency" or "This will raise your frequency is in my opinion, bullshit. The observer and the observed are the same. You can already create expansion through anything. Anything can raise your frequency and anything can lower it but its effect on you is for you to decide. It’s not the thing that has the ability or power to do so, it’s you. You are the one creating the ability or lack thereof.
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What I’m doing is not simply dabbling in belief systems. Rather, I'm in the realm of the innocent and insatiably curious desire to create through experience and to delete unnecessary trauma from my psyche.

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David Hawkins work has a lot of similarities to the major religions and it is easily becoming that. If I could describe his beliefs, it reminds foundationally of the Eastern religions with a spicy pinch flavor of Christianity dropped on top.


Here they have their fancy dancey little statistics of how much they think the worlds current vibration is based on their body confirmation tests.

However! If there are an infinite amount of parallel universes, yes that very well could be one of the parallel universes vibratory patterns of the masses, but not every single parallel universe is subject to such a low reading that he believes is the true vibratory pattern for the earth.

There’s also a parallel universe where Trump is still president. Where we are in yet another war, the list goes on in on. So this “this is the final truth on the matter” is bullshit in my opinion.

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August 4th

Similar to how as a college student, you wouldn’t find yourself reading third grade level books because it isn’t challenging, it isn’t your current level, and it is meant for third graders. So in essence, just like how our reading levels progress, or perception levels progress as well.

See someone may read something and to them it is true, it is fact, and it is real. They subject themselves to the reality of that “reading level” or “perception level” and won’t see more unless they are willing to challenge themselves to see more. They can stay in the “third grade reading level” if they want as adults, but it can be even more exciting to read things that challenge our views, beliefs, ideas of the world and that which exponentially increases our “reading level” or “perception level” of the world and all that is.

The thing is, who is willing to strip themselves naked of limiting beliefs to be observed? Who is willing to look at their belief systems that they identify with in a non-defensive way? Who is really willing to have everything removed from themselves to find out who they truly are? What happens when one comes to the end of one belief system after another belief system? Perhaps can they find a place beyond belief systems? Beyond the idea of a conceptual scope of beliefs that are taken as true? Can truth exist without beliefs? Are beliefs what separate us more than they unite us? And if they do, is perhaps the way to realize we are all truly one as Jesus prayed we would realize before he went to the cross, to drop our beliefs? And if so, how can we truly become free from any limiting beliefs?

If perception is to awareness as beliefs are to concepts, then perhaps we were always meant to transcended the other. The focal point is remembering you are beyond the limited nature of the other and that which is limited, is not truly something that exists. Anything that has a beginning and an ending never had an eternal foundation to sustain it's eternal existence; so why do we try so hard to fit our infinite nature in a temporary belief system that causes more harm than help?

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I asked a friend who is a faithful follower of Christianity if they were afraid of tapping into their power and they answered yes…

Many religions are designed to use fear to keep you dependent on it rather than realize you don’t need it. Once you realize you don't need religion to thrive, that is where the real fun begins.

Not all Christians are religious but Christianity is a religion. Just as people made religion, people can make Christianity mean whatever they want it to mean to them personally, but in form, Christianity is still an organized religion and falls under that category by definition of what a religion is.

If you're not religious then don't follow a religion. Just follow Jesus. If you're truly not religious, stop reading the Bible and read what Jesus' has placed on your heart. Yes I know Noah's story is great, but your story with God is even better and more applicable for you. Balance is key. Learn from others but also learn from your own life. In my opinion, there's no need to serve religion unless you want to experience that in this life.

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Most religions are sharing limiting thoughts of God together with a community.

It's like they flaunt this idea, "Oh you don’t limit God how WE limit God??? You’re not REAL followers of Jesus."

"Oh you don’t limit God to only being our Father? Then you aren’t a REAL CHRISTIAN."

"Oh do you don’t limit God by seeing Him as only in the male gender? Oh then you’re not a REAL CHRISTIAN."

It’s fucking hilarious.

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How I see things might not be beneficial for you. How you see things might not be beneficial for me. It’s not because one is right or the other one is wrong, but rather both are valid experiences of a certain type of perception. Maybe one might be more expansive than the other, but an experience of an expansive perception versus a constricted perception is still an experience. Neither one is better than the other, they’re merely experiences meant to be explored by consciousness itself, us.

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August 16th 2021

The reason why I think masturbation is important to do before entering a relationship sexually is first, you find out what you like and what you don’t like. Secondly, you learn that there’s a difference between doing something to get gratifying pleasure and doing it to connect to the Divine.

One is easy and a quick rush, the other is more challenging and is a way into a deeper experience. Also through the latter, you are much more conscientious of the two when entering in a relationship and then you desire to never exploit your partners body for pleasure, but rather treat it genuinely as a holy portal to the Divine that you both enter into mutually. The latter goes beyond temporary pleasure and allows the two to meet in the infinite power joined together in a holy act of union. So if you don’t know the difference, then many times you could exploit your partner for pleasure.

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August 6th

We need to move out of the realm of distrust in the government versus trusting the government and move into the realm of trusting ourselves because, if you realize you create your reality by your thoughts, energy, attention, that you choose what probable universe you will be in, then it doesn’t matter what’s happening outside because what’s happening outside is oftentimes a reflection of what is happening within you.

You choose infinite amount of probabilities and what you will attract to yourself will be because the observer in the observed are the same. So stop blaming other people for everything that goes wrong in your life and take responsibility. And if you want to try changing something outside of you, try to change yourself.

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In order for there truly to be an infinite amount of probabilities then there truly can never be a closed system. Technically everything from some level is open in one way or another, regardless of if we can see it with our physical senses or not.

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The issue with the 17 levels of consciousness from David Hawkin's books is that it’s judging emotions by a certain number... It’s analyzing discreetly certain emotions and then saying it’s non-local but it’s still judging them based off of the numerical system when we know life is not discreetly numerical. We know that there are more than close systems, so it’s not true to reality. It’s true to the maybe dualistic potential reality... Maybe to one probable universe, but it’s not infinitely real to all.

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At first we only knew about classical physics and thought everything behaved within the laws of classical physics.

Classical physics is deterministic. We can measure the behavior. It is like binary. Either 0 or 1. C-bits are considered classical.

However, our whole world got turned upside down when quantum physics was discovered by realizing particles can not only be 0 or 1, they can be 0 and 1 simultaneously.

Light can be a particle or a wave as well as a particle AND a wave at the same time.



Quantum physics deals with the smallest particles called quanta or qbits. If everything is made of quanta particles, then in some way, everything should behave similarly to these quanta particles.

Think about religions. Many religions operate similar to classical physics. They think there are only certain laws. There is only a certain correct way to believe in God, read scriptures about God and they operate in the level of duality which consists of some sort of exclusion and discreetness. This is correct and that is not correct. 1 is right and 0 is wrong. They see things as not being simultaneously correct….

But you see... There is a level of reality BEYOND daulity, 0's or 1's, and cause and effect. If you go within, you will eventually find the part of you that goes beyond duality.
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Light is an open system

A particle is considered to be a closed system.

But we know that light can be a wave and a particle at the same time, so that means that in the grand scheme of things, everything is in some way an open system.

Similar to how in quantum physics it says quanta can be a particle AND a wave at the same time, a closed system AND an open system can be both in some way, and I would label that both as consciousness.

Think of it as layers of abstraction. We are looking up from one more layer above particle and wave to the idea that encapsulates huge masses to small masses. We are looking at the idea of a system. As above, so below.

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Quantum physicists are dumbfounded as to quantum entanglement, how measuring one electron can affect another electron, no matter what the distance is. Some even purport that there is no way for them to communicate between each other and I would say the missing puzzle piece to this strange phenomenon is consciousness which goes undetected, since it goes beyond wave or particle.

I believe consciousness can be in a state before a wave or particle, as a wave or a particle, or as a wave and a particle.

The connection between the two is consciousness.

To answer how quantum entanglement happened, rob bell said something needs to travel faster than the speed of light, which Einstein thought was impossible.

However, let’s say hypothetically that consciousness travels faster than the speed of light, then that would mean that would answer the connection.

Spooky action at a distance actually happens contrary to Einstein’s deterministic viewpoint of the gloves where it is already determined before one views it.

If you think about this. Above, so below. If one electron can effect another one regardless the distance, then if there is still a connection perhaps called consciousness or whatever else that can be proven, then that would mean your simultaneous selves can all be affected simultaneously in some way.

There are some physicists who believe that once a probability is chosen, the other ones are deleted or go away… But then to where?

Then there are other physicists (such as myself) who believe each of the possible outcomes do exist because infinite potential is behind each probability for infinity and it is natural to allow things to create and expand rather than to constrict and disintegrate for eternity.
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Being aware of more altered states of consciousness means that more can pop into your field.
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