Journal Discourse Part 45

Aug 29th

To the people who want to stay relevant in someone’s life but they’ve proven over and over that they project their insecurities in the form of insults and negative behavior without remorse... Be more scared for being seen as meaningless in that person’s life because then, nothing you say, do, or think has any power over that person. That person no longer cares what you do, say or think because it doesn't mean anything to them.
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I feel like when the subconscious knows there is too much trauma to be manifested in the body for one to deal with, the healthier alternative is to make the information unreadable or not recallable until adequate trauma in the body has been dealt with.

I kind of see it like an assembly line. Imagine the trauma are your groceries going towards the cashier and say there are too many groceries on the line. Then imagine the cashier is the one who makes the trauma visible by expressing it visibly by pointing it out. Maybe her cashier line only allows 15 items and you brought 100 to her. She points out the imbalance and then it is your choice to either eject the trauma from the grocery line (your body) or make things difficult for the cashier and keep it there (store it back in the body as trauma).
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What if the god mentioned in the Bible is not always the Creator of the Universe and we were able to measure that invisible entity's likelihood of being the Creator based on its actions recorded in the oral record that became written?

The reason why I propose this question is because there are parts in the Bible that seem to reflect a god that seems to exhibit low vibrational behavior, similar to a human stuck in a lack mindset. For example, in the passages where this supposed "Creator" commands the Jews to murder innocent babies, that seems a little sus to me... Then there are other parts recorded in the Bible where the supposed "Creator" has favorites, enemies, and an obsession over acquiring land rather than everyone living together on the land in harmony regardless of their race or religious convictions.

Here are some other strange instances found within the Bible mentioned below:
The God of the Bible will kill you if you don’t listen to him (Think Ark of the Covenant when they retrieved it back or when Abraham didn't circumcise his son right away). The God of the Bible needs blood sacrifices in order to have a relationship with you (Leviticus). The God of the Bible doesn’t forgive finite mistakes because he sends people to hell infinitely for finite mistakes (certain Christian interpretations of the NT).

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October 2nd
I think the Creator mentioned in the Bible could be, more often than not, a mass hallucination of who they think God was at that time. I presume that they thought their holy scriptures were a record of them and their supreme God, just like every other religion is convinced that their scripture is an account of their supreme God.

But perhaps in many instances, it’s nothing more than a mass hallucination? Imagine believing in free will but then stating that there is a supreme God who created you against your will... A God who created all of us against our wills. Is that not a walking contradiction?

Perhaps the founders of their respective religions established blood contracts with more intelligent entities that were granted control over them through the spilling of blood through animal sacrifices as mentioned by the law of one by I am Ra, but still, that would have been their choice to agree on those blood sacrifices. Personally I think it is blasphemous to say the Creator of the universe has “favorites” and orders barbaric genocide for his favorite nation of people against his "less favorite nation of people." It sounds eerily sus to me...

I presume to think that many religious people are actually projecting their own desire onto a God that mimics their own passions and needs. If God is truly the best of the best, he wouldn’t kill people for not "listening" to him, whatever that means. If they couldn't see God, then how does everyone agree that the prophet who speaks on behalf of God is even communicating with the actual Creator? Because that God offers them land and abundance? Well technically any higher intelligent entity can offer that. I personally think the true Creator would honor everyone’s free will. The true Creator wouldn’t favor nations, but rather love all nations unconditionally and equally.

In order to truly have free will between good and bad, you would need a choice. You need to be able to choose between an infinite amount of choices the one you wish. If someone or something is constantly choosing for you, then you’re pretty much no different than a robot that has already been programmed.

I also think potentially much of Jesus’ life was turned into another myth or legend where he became deified just like so many other myths and legends do to exemplary people. I do believe more likely than not that he was a remarkable human being, but how on earth would he say to be like him if we couldn’t because he is God and we are not? This also goes back to what I think Jesus' message was. I don't think he came to deify himself and to try to convince us to worship him in order to go to heaven and be saved. I think his message was pretty clear that we are all one, that the kingdom of heaven is within us, and that we all equally have access to the Source of Love, also known as the Creator.

That would be an impossible standard and new doctrines would have to be created to compensate (which they were thanks to the known in-congruency between those said to be written by Paul but are syntactically different than his other epistles that were verifiably from him). I believe Jesus probably did live, but many of the stories about him seem more like dreams that were written down rather than actual events, especially since we have zero tangible evidence to prove any of the gospels did happen in the way they were recorded.

Since there is no credible evidence for any of the events in Jesus’ life, nor can we prove that all the gospels were written by who they said they were, why would it be so outlandish to say it's hard to say for sure if the written words in the New Testament truly all happened, especially after they were oral history for 10-20 years before they were written down? Wouldn't it be more outlandish to believe oral history kept the events of history pure without any legends or myths attached to them?

Paul never even saw Jesus in the physical flesh and he is quite literally the man who birthed the religion we now know as Christianity . Literally the only thing one needs to believe is blind faith in their religion, their scriptures and their leaders, which every other religion has to some degree, hence it being a religion.

There are definitely passages in the old and new testament that connect a beautiful message of love and oneness, but there are also strange verses of division, genocide, sex, blood sacrifices, that breed confusion and fear. Why bank on these verses giving life if we can just go straight to the Source through prayer and meditation?

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Oct 4th
All of life seeks some sort of expression. That’s why a lot of times in our dreams, will get glimpses of our consciousness expressing, expanding and experiencing other things that maybe we cannot experience yet in this physical reality.

Our subconscious desires to experience the love in our dreams. It desires to experience the love of life, of things, of situations, of different probabilities because life desires to seek expression.
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