Exploring Life

9/30/20 I guess the reason why I don’t have much faith in religions such as Christianity anymore  (but still in God)  is because Christianity failed to prepare me and my family for the world. The Bible is a collection of other people’s stories with God, but it doesn’t go into depth about awareness and how to break free from unconscious behavior, bad habits, anxiety, and stress. It may tell us not to worry, but it doesn’t show us how. Or it may tell us we’re not our thoughts, but it doesn’t go into depth on any of that. It scratches the surface of a lot of important topics because it isn’t meant to be read as a manual on how to do life; it is primarily a collection of stories of how they did life, including their mistakes, victories, consolation, wisdom, symbols, allegories, and so on. Then, when I read books like A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle, I was fascinated and learned and grew so much because it’s all meant to be applicable to my life in the present moment. It’s not a story of someo

5/19/20 Many people may wonder about my allegiance to religion, and I would say I have none. I'm completely allegiant and devoted to God, but not religion. I do believe one can learn a lot from different religions, traditions, and cultures, but I am not defined by any. There are many reasons why but I'll try to go in depth about my personal experience. Growing up, I went to church with my family. I would say I always loved God (even if I didn't understand God) when I was told about God, but I didn't make Christianity my own religion until around 6th grade. I then believed in order to be close to God, I had to be close to Christianity or else my relationship with God wasn't right, and I couldn't "be close to God." As the years go by, I still fell in love with God, but I expected Christianity to be the mediator between me and God and solve my problems. I wasn't taught how to solve them myself with God, but was expected to continue to go every thr

5/11/20 I think the biggest thing that is keeping people from new experiences that are different from what they already know is their inherent fear of the unknown. If someone is afraid of the unknown, they are more likely to cling to the habits of life, to the automatic pilot of life. Their body craves feeling, touching, hearing and experiencing the same things because within that they feel a protection around the known.  However also within that known there is little to no growth, staleness, predictability, and an automatic response to life. When your body gets used to doing certain things, it strengthens the neurons and the connections around that thing until you no longer consciously do it, but your habits literally become an unconscious byproduct of your waking life. Instead of you ruling your mind, your mind rules you with what it already knows.  The known is led by the known, and that safety feels reassuring. However, when one makes peace with the unknown, and they are constantly

3/8/20 I think what's hard about Christianity is it can potentially feed into our weaknesses and insecurities by saying "oh you're not enough", or "you're broken", or "you're sinful" and then Christianity will try to fix you, the broken project.  I USED to believe that narrative, but now I don't because I believe the truth is, God is already within every single human being. He is everywhere and in all places, in all creation. There is no where He is not. You don't need a special connection from some priest to be one with God, you already are one with God. The very fact that your soul is immortal is proof that you are connected to the Source of immortality, God.  Christians try to sell it like "Oh I'm going to give you Jesus, and you'll be fixed" but in actuality they're selling their religion, their beliefs, their community, the whole entire package to you. They want you fully connected, fully invested, fully p

August 18th, 2023 When I stand outside in the darkness of the night I’m subtly reminded this home is not my own Its peaceful trees are someone else’s seed It’s land the expression of another man I know this is my last incarnation here And if feels bittersweet to behold it as a mirror But I can’t help feel like a foreigner in this body Still an amateur in my own unique hobbies I sit I stand, I get up and command I tell this body to do this, do that, don’t forget to crap. Then I retreat back into a deep state of Me. And it all folds into one thing. Relentlessly it becomes like the wave of a sea. How interesting it is ‘to be.’ I will miss this Earth and all its inhabitants. But I know that this is not the time to write death notes. But to write the future and what it holds. But as of now I can’t help but feel both dead and alive For meditation deconstructs linear time and replaces it with concentric rhymes of life It unveils the behind scenes of this mysterious cosmic dream. The earth the

"Absolute Truth is not a belief, not a religion, not a philosophy, not a momentary experience, and not a transient spiritual experience either. It is neither static nor in motion, neither good nor bad. It is other than all of that, more other than you can ever imagine. Truth cannot be touched by thought or imagined by the mind. It can only be found in the heart of universal being. To know thy self is the key. To bring forth your being is The Way."                              - Adyashanti